Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?

I want a promotion or some kind of raise in my job. I'm not sure how that will be achievable. Also I need some sort of independence against my own thoughts and so often I find myself finding faults in others before correcting myself. I'm trying to curb those thoughts but against my own will I find myself thinking about finding reasons and faults within other persons and how that have contributed to my failure or behaviour in a negative manner. Instead I should be focussing on myself and try to achieve my goals